I feel so dead inside.

Ugh. I wish people would stop telling me that there will be other boys. I dont want OTHER boys I want him
I've only been thinking about him and I really want to be with him again, so bad. I would do anything just to get back with him
People say if he really did care about me then he would come back to me.
I believe that but i know he really does/did have alot of feelings for me. It's just I really hurt him. I wish he would've have gave me another chance though.
I think he's just using the girl he's going out with now as a rebound girl. Maybe.
I mean could he really already love her?
She's first on his top.
And i was second.
But that couldnt determine if he has more feelings for her then he did with me. He could just be trying to get me jelouse.
I hope he really doesnt truely love her.
The thought of all this makes me sad.
I wish I could just use a time machine to go back to the exact moment and tell him I only have feelings for him
I was stupid, cause now I've realized how much I DONT have feelings for the other guy. He was my one and only. Nobody could EVER replace him. I wish we were still together. It's all my fault that we arnt together. :(