A word to him ,

I hatee this. Why would you make a decision like that?
Yourr happy...Im sad.
I bet you didnt even think about how i would feel.
Right now I just want you to talk to me, so we can make things back to normal
I cant take this, i gotta get you out of my mind somehow.
But its not easy.
Mann how long is this going to last? I cant take another day of not talking to you.
Idk what to do...-_-
Is this really easy for you? Do you go through your day without thinking of me?
Plllease come back, i really really need you.
I know you said this isnt forever but babe you said you'd never hurt me again.
Your doing it right now. You broke a promise.
I trusted in you and you let me down.

I dont understand why you would do this. I know its so you can have a better future. Theres another way to handle this though.
How do I really know its not so you can flirt with girls or get with somebody else?
I can focus, how come its so hard for you to do it.

Welll, Like I said if this is what you want go ahead.
:(

Im still here.

Im still here, I just havent been on cause idk what to write about.

Well Im still empty inside, im still losing friends, I still have a boyfriend, Still missing him♥, Still I have social anxiety around some people, I still Hate independent study, I still am Irresponsible, Lazy, Bored, Happy, Sad, Mad, Irritated. Im basically everything. My emotions come and go. Im happy then the next minute im crying.

I still need To go to a docter. I need a therapist.

I need people to talk to about my problems.

I need them to tell me why does it still feel like im missing something.

I need them to tell me why my emotions keep changing, and why i cry for no reason at all.

I need them to tell me why once I get on the bus all I think of are bad memories.

And why those memories wont go away.

I try to make things right with people, but nothing ever works. No matter how mutch I try to hang out with them and be friends with them, they still end up ignoring me.

Its suprising how many real friends I still have left. I will make things right with the people that matter, atleast ill keep trying.

Wellll..

Peace. Love. &happiness.