Im still here.

Im still here, I just havent been on cause idk what to write about.

Well Im still empty inside, im still losing friends, I still have a boyfriend, Still missing him♥, Still I have social anxiety around some people, I still Hate independent study, I still am Irresponsible, Lazy, Bored, Happy, Sad, Mad, Irritated. Im basically everything. My emotions come and go. Im happy then the next minute im crying.

I still need To go to a docter. I need a therapist.

I need people to talk to about my problems.

I need them to tell me why does it still feel like im missing something.

I need them to tell me why my emotions keep changing, and why i cry for no reason at all.

I need them to tell me why once I get on the bus all I think of are bad memories.

And why those memories wont go away.

I try to make things right with people, but nothing ever works. No matter how mutch I try to hang out with them and be friends with them, they still end up ignoring me.

Its suprising how many real friends I still have left. I will make things right with the people that matter, atleast ill keep trying.

Wellll..

Peace. Love. &happiness.