Decision.

I decided I'm just gonna do me and whatever happens, happens. Cause i'm tired of sitting here being all sad because things arnt going the way I planned. I wish me and him would get back together so bad. But if it's not happening then maybe it just isn't ment to be. And I think I've reached the point where im okay with that. I mean of course there will be times where I'm thinking of him but if it's the way things have to be I'm ready to accept it.

Peace. Love. &Happiness.

Mann.

Your my bestfriend, my lover, my babe, my everything. And i need to talk to you. I miss you so much. Your the only person i can talk to, and every minute i'm thinking of you. Every text i get i'm wishing it was you. You said on friday that you needed time to think, it's tuesday. Do you really need that much time. I love you so much. I wish you'd talk to me.

Peace. Love. &Happiness.

The way it is.

I don't like the fact that i'm the reason that your depressed. I wish I could do something to change that. I wish for both of us to be happy even if it means being happy without each other. I know we had alot of good times together but if your ready for me to not be in your life anymore, i'm okay with that. Because in the end, all I care about is that your happy.

Peace. Love. &Happiness.

Jusst venting.

I'm sorry for leaving you, it's just you gave me no other choice. You don't know how hard it is for me to watch and hear about other people being together when i wanna be with you soo bad. I really need you here with me, i wanna be able to put out how great you are to the world, you mean so much to me, more than you could ever know. And by all my actions you should know i really do love you. I would give my all to you, nobody could take your place or compare to you. You really are the best thing i ever had. I don't think my love for you will ever die. It's too strong. Why do you think i keep letting you back into my life. I wish we could be official, i wish you could see from my eyes and feel from my heart cause then you'd know how much you mean to me and how much i love you. I'm sorry i hurt you. I didn't mean to, please don't leave me.

Idk what i'd do if you never wanted to talk to me again. That would show me how much you really cared for me. I need you in my life though. I always feel so incomplete when i'm not talking to you or with you. Even when i'm having a good day i always feel like something is missing when your not around. I really need you here. Please don't go.

Well...

Peace. Love. &Happiness.

Today,

Today was a fun day. It kept my mind off of everything bad. I wish everyday could be like this.

It would make life so much easier if life went by fun and worry free.

Even though today was a good day, i still wish my fruitcake was around so I could tell him how today went, and tell him how much i love him :)

I really need to talk to him, but yeah i don't wanna ruin my mood. Soooo goodnight.

Peace. Love. &Happiness.

Hopin for a miracle.

Just wish, he was ready to be with me. I'm too impatient to find somebody else. He's the only person I wanna be with. I love him too much to let go.

I said so many times I was just gonna move on and stop waiting for him, but I can't move on. I've tried too many times.

I think this is how it's supposed to be, so ima just leave it be.

Maybe things will change but for now I can only hope for the best.

Wellll

Peace. Love. &Happiness.

I want you

Your the best thing that ever happened to me.  I can't believe that we keep ending up this way. All I want is for you to stay in my life for good. Everythings better with you here. You turn my rainy days to sunshine. You take me away to a maximum high and I love it, I love you. 

Peace. Love. &Happiness.