Another poem from him..

Its from my Superman and i didnt even ask thiss time
Hess great:]
He makes me happy cause hes soo weird and funny, i like it!
I cant wait to start hanging out with more once im not grounded anymore:]

"i would walk across a dessert, just to see her face.i would walk 100000 miles,to be with her in a romantic place.being without her is like being in a war,with nothing but a battle field to explore.i would march across the earth, i would swim across the sea,to reach the place where my heart is supposed to be.and that is with you, next to you, with you in my arms,you are the medicine to my sickness, the band-aid to my scar.i hope you never leave, i hope i never go,i can't live my life without you, even though it may not show.i want my love to be with yours, and yours with mine.ill make the rain of your day go away, i can make the sun of your day shine.i would die for you, cry for you, i can make your sorrow disappear.i can make your worried heart stand at ease, and make your lifes path clear.i will do anything to make you my girl.to hold your hand, to give you love, and to give you the world.i would defeat all your monsters, give glow to all your darkness.drowned you with roses, until you grow speachless.being without you is like being a stranger in moscow, cold scared and alone.being with you makes my love for you as hard as stone.making sure nothing can bring me down.so that im as happy as a clown.all i want to say, to end this poem of romance.is i hope one day.. you give me a chance."

The end.

Without a Doubt

When Im sad he makes me happy.

He fills my heart up with joy,but to him im just his little toy,Beat up and thrown away.

I cant Help my self im falling deeply deeply in love

But hes not there to catch me.

I close my eyes and dream of him every night..When i open my eyes hes gone.

Oh what id give just to hear his voice,Feel his touch, Tingle all over my body from his kiss

again. He's the light to my shining star..The sweet to my candy..No other boy can take your place..No matter what..Ill always need you,

Ill be here for you when you need me like i need you.

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So now theres three more days untill Im not grounded anymore and also three more days untill Christmas. Man these last few days have me going by soo slow. But For some reason its always like that for me when Its christmas time. Hopefully I Get what i want for christmas..When my mom gets home from Work,me and her are going to the MetroPcs store To go look at other phones just incase i dont get my blackberry. That way Eaither way Ill get the phone i want..My mom always says That shes gonna only buy us two presents to put under the christmas tree but she always ends up buying us more..So far theres like 8 or 9 presents under the tree it doesnt really look like it though because of how my mom put them under the tree. This is not how tall the christmas tree is,Im just short soo i couldnt get the rest of it haha. Me and my mom Decorated this tree by ourselves cause neither my brother,dad or auntie wanted to help us. What loosers they are lol well i gotta go clean so thats all for now..

The end.

Lost in thoughts

If I could have just one wish,

It would be to wake up everyday Hearing the sound of your breathing on my neck,

Feeling the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine..

Slowly,Faster Then slower again..The sound of love.

I could never find That feeling with anyone But you.

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Today I Was really anti-social,I didnt really feel like talking to anyone. Not even My Soon to be lost Friend,The person im really starting to fall for..or the person that supposably has alot of feelings for me.. I Find my self thinking alot lately about if i should keep talking to [Him] Because Of all things I hear but then again Thats the same reason he was going to stop talking to me(because of the things he heard) He's smart enough to not believe the lies. Why cant i do the same? Its just so hard. Im scared of getting into a deeper relationship with him because I dont want to end up getting hurt again.

Me and my Bestfriend are really falling apart. Why do we have to lose friendships? Shes the one friend i dont want to lose.Shes like my better half if i didnt have her. Id be More lost then i already am.

Its like nobody wants to hear what im saying..I have no one to really talk to anymore. Nobody gets me anymore. Im trying not to think alot because when i do i always end up doing something stupid.

Im on independent study the reason im on it is all because i took a pill called a "green alien". It made me Crazy I ended up in the hospital. Even though that one pill has cause me alot of trouble,I dont care I want to take it again.I mean it made me go crazy but it also made me feel good like nobody has ever made me feel.

If there was anyway i could get that pill again

Id probably take it.

The end.

Hottie lamati with a swimmer's body!!

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Haha I got that from Hannah Montana



Im Really bored right now so Thats all the Guys Ill be posting
More later..Byee!

A poem for me?...Why you shouldnt have!!

Okay so i was on myspace talking to my superman:)
haha he told me that he could write poems,I wanted to see how good he was so i told him to write a poem and he wrote a poem about me! I loved it so i wanted to share it with you guys.. Oh yeah excuse his grammer...We all cant be good writers lol..Cause i know im not:P

"theres a girl who maks my world bekum a dream,filled with care, and compassion. lik heaven it seems,but outside of that dream, its a nightmare kum to life,but wen i talk to her, it gives me power to strive.i kant see her, here her voice, all i kan do is think,with barely an image of her, my heart starts to sink,she makes me smile, in everyword i see from her that i see,i hope we will be together one day, the way i feel about her i kno we were ment to be.no girl has ever made me feel this way,i dream of being able to kiss her lips, or just hold her hand all day, wile my heart beats the letters of her name,wen it does my breathin wil never be the same, t-a-t-i-a-n-e, the letters that spell the name of the most beautiful girl,talkin to her makes the words kum out of my mouth in a mixt up slur,all i wana say is i want you, to call my babe, the girl my love will never astray but all i kan do everyday all day, is dream the pain away.the pain of the thot of her out of my world,to me u wil always b my lifes most special girl."

Confessing a feeling

Aha this is suuuper lame:) but i was going through my closet and i found all these notes and drawings from when i was in 6th,7th and 8th grade..I think this was when when i was in sixth grade..I dont even remeber writing this but here iss..Dont laugh i know its bad!!

"When Im with you it seems like my love for you will never end and when im not with you i just want to be with you again, and sometimes i dont want to be with you at all. You just make me want to cry and fall. I hope that ill find someone like you again, if not Ill just be crying and crying again. This is a poem i wrote for Me and you wishin' we'll stick together like glue. I hope you know Im confessing a feeling that i never felt before just for you and only for you!"

Haha its hekka embarrassing but i just had to post it when i found it.

Team jakeward:)

^Back of shirt. Front of shirt.^

I was soo bored and I love the Twilight Saga so I decided to make this shirt. I actually made this shirt two days ago but I just felt like putting them up here today
I wish i would have made this when i went to the premiere! but its okay..
I like Both Edward and Jacob.I didnt want to choose betweent the two so I decided i would be Team Jakeward.It makes everything soo mutch easier. Im not a good writer with glitter so i messed up alot. Haha dont judge me!!
GO TEAM JAKEWARD!!

Grounded.

Yupp Ive been grounded since October.suckss I know.But Im happy because theres only 5 more days untill im not grounded anymore!! Yay! Then ill get to hang out with austin,My valentine and many other people..I just cant wait. For christmas i told my mom that I only want one thing and thats a blackberry:) But i might not even get it because of the price..She knows how bad i want that phone,Its like the only really expensive thing that Ive ever asked for In my whole entire life..I think.

Thats the one. But the one I want is red and black..If I get ill gaurd it with my life cause people like to steal. I will appriciate this sooo mutch if she gets it!

Please dont be scared of me.

Dont believe the lies. Look me in my eyes. Please dont be scared of me. I remember you. This feeling isnt new. So please dont be scared of me.

Realize.

I guess i dont have real eyes.

Because i never know when someones lieng to me.

Thats why i cant trust alot of people.

Todays horoscope

"There's nothing wrong with making room for other people's opinions, but you should take steps to guard yourself from being taken advantage of or being led astray. After all, your mind isn't quite made up, which makes it easy for someone to come along and influence you. Listen intently to what other people have to say about the topic in question, and then do your own research either to confirm or disprove their theories. Your perspective on certain issues may change, but the final word should be left entirely up to you."

I got my horoscope from:http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/8404539/ns/entertainment-horoscope

Click it to get yours!!

Quotes i like..Quotes that are in my head.

~Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
~True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.
~Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again.
~If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever.
~So baby if you want me You’ve got to show me love Words are so easy to say,
~One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:that word is love.
~Love bears all things, believes all things,hopes all things, endures all things.
~A friend is someone who walks in when the whole world has walked out.
~Its hard to believe a story thats been told so well. And all these lines are sounding the same.
~Our promising lives are full of empty promises. Temptations falling and calling you home again. Well Im sorry if we've let you down.
~Im not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry i can't help myself, I'm in love with you.
~She's the girl with her head up high and her middle finger in the air because for once in her life,she doesn't care.

Well im just basically starting thiss..

Im kinda new to the idea of blogging. I just thought it would be really fun and

a good way to express my self.The blogs i put out are gonna have no point to them cause there just what im thinking about,whats going on in life and Whats going on in other important peoples life..Im a very random and weird person so thats what my blogs are gonna be. Im not a good writer..but ohh well who is?!?