Lost in thoughts

If I could have just one wish,

It would be to wake up everyday Hearing the sound of your breathing on my neck,

Feeling the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine..

Slowly,Faster Then slower again..The sound of love.

I could never find That feeling with anyone But you.

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Today I Was really anti-social,I didnt really feel like talking to anyone. Not even My Soon to be lost Friend,The person im really starting to fall for..or the person that supposably has alot of feelings for me.. I Find my self thinking alot lately about if i should keep talking to [Him] Because Of all things I hear but then again Thats the same reason he was going to stop talking to me(because of the things he heard) He's smart enough to not believe the lies. Why cant i do the same? Its just so hard. Im scared of getting into a deeper relationship with him because I dont want to end up getting hurt again.

Me and my Bestfriend are really falling apart. Why do we have to lose friendships? Shes the one friend i dont want to lose.Shes like my better half if i didnt have her. Id be More lost then i already am.

Its like nobody wants to hear what im saying..I have no one to really talk to anymore. Nobody gets me anymore. Im trying not to think alot because when i do i always end up doing something stupid.

Im on independent study the reason im on it is all because i took a pill called a "green alien". It made me Crazy I ended up in the hospital. Even though that one pill has cause me alot of trouble,I dont care I want to take it again.I mean it made me go crazy but it also made me feel good like nobody has ever made me feel.

If there was anyway i could get that pill again

Id probably take it.

The end.