Feeelin a little empty.

Im hurting soo bad inside. I dont know why. I have a boyfriend. I love him. He loves me. But somethings missing. I don't know whats wrong with me. On the outside im happy.
On the inside I feel like im dying. The pain hurts. Not Physically, but emotionally and mentally.
People would say, i have everything, i need to be happy. but i dont feel that way. The pain only comes when im not with my boyfriend.
When im with him im fine.
Ughh I need him.
Maybe hes the pain i feel.
My stomach is twisting and turning. into what feels like knots.
Im hurting. :(
Why wont he come back to me?
If he came back would i leave something that really makes me happy?
I dont even know.
What am i missing?
Why do i feel soo empty.
Ive never felt this way. Except when i was in school.
Now im out. I dont have to be there anymore. The school that was making me depressed, im out..but i still feel like i did when i was there.
I think im going back to being depressed.
I cant even talk to anybody.
Atleast thats what it feels like.
If i tell my boyfriend how im feeling he'll think it's him thats
making me feel this way.
I cant tell my bestfriend, shes going through her boyfriend breaking up with her.
I dont even think a Professional counciler can help me.
Whats wrong with me?!?!?
Ughh. I'm out.

Peace. Love. &happiness.