Late night.

Im babysitting right now. I cant stop thinking about how much I miss him. The two kids I'm babysitting are asleep. Both of their parents should be here soon. Gosh I'm so tired. My heart hearts. Its shattered. I dont want anyone to fix it except him. Man, it sucks to feel like you've lost someone forever. I really do hate losing friends and losing touch with people. But Im past hating that I lost him. That made more since in my head. But I dont feel like erasing it. I cant wait to get in my bed and go to sleep, hopefully I dream about him so I can see his face. Man I completely messed up. I feel like i've just been in a really bad nightmare for the past few weeks. I think Im gonna feel like this forever. :( Mann. I just really want him back. On the outside im happy for other people. But then on the inside im just broken up, feelin like I'll never be fixed. Well The kids parents are here so Ima go. I'll write the next time i have a chance.

Peace. Love. &Happiness.