Just writing random thoughts.

Idk. I don't think he tells me the truth sometimes.
Like I trust him but then there's something deep down inside of me that's telling me he's lieng.
Maybe its just cause I'm so used to boys lieng to me that I think every boy will lie to me now.
I really gota get over that.
Cause now I know he's definately the one for me, I dont want to lose him.
He's my EVERYTHING.
I love him sooo much. I need him so much. I miss him. I hate not seeing him everyday.
It sucks so bad. And like I try to see him when I'm not busy. But he only tries to see me on the weekands. I think when he doesnt want to hang out he makes excuses. Thats where my trusting boys issue comes in.

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Sometimes my feelings for ---- come back. And sometimes they go away.
Right now it doesnt feel like I've met him, It doesnt feel like I have a burning desire to see him anymore.
But I think If I ever do see him, all my feelings for him will come back. I wont know how to control them.
What if I do something I'll regret? I have a habit of doing that.

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There's so many things I did in my life I wish I can take back.
So many things that are still with me right now.
My life would be so much easier if I made smarter choices, and those stupid
things I did went away.
Why does life have to be 'done in pen'?
It's so stupid.
Well thats it for now, Ima go do my hw.

Peace. Love. &happiness.